Coping and Mind Games

I am beginning to think that everyone goes through life just coping with whatever they have. That's why one has to have a healthy childhood, that they will be armored with the essentials in facing life head on.

In life, you have to be brave to face all that is happening around you... Just cope with everything that you've got. Fight with every weapon that you've got. I used to not believe this.... I have always seen life as beautiful. I'm not sure why I allowed my eyes to be opened to the reality of pain but somehow, it did open. Now, I wish I didn't get to see the side of hurt, pain and sadness. I just wish I can see life again in those colored glasses so that I can see the beauty of life and enjoy its fullness.

My friend Meine says that everything is a mind game. Yes, I believe that. I believe that a lot of things can be controlled by your mind but there are times when your emotions over rule your thoughts and this is when you say, I need to get out to clear my mind.
But what happens when your heart knows the right thing to do and yet you are sad that you are doing it. When you are making sure that your mind works with your heart... how does that really happen?

I guess I should not fret about it anymore. I guess things will be clearer once we can talk about it. If we are meant to talk and clear things out, it will happen. If not, I think I'm ready to give up on this idea that we will get back together.

I'm afraid lang that there might be no one else that I would feel so strongly for. I guess this is where my faith steps in. Just believing that one day it will happen... that one day, it will all be ok and I will see the colored rainbow of love. HAY! kakapagod ha!!!