Can feelings and thoughts be somehow disconnected? Or are they one and the same but we just need to stop denying and start accepting?
It took me sometime to accept that I am in a relationship and longer for me to completely admit to myself that I am truly in love!
The realization hit me when I was preparing for his birthday. I made it into a week long celebration of surprises and fun! :-) Everyday for the whole birthday week, he gets one birthday surprise. On the day of his birthday, he picked numbers from a bowl and each number corresponds to an event that transpired on the year of his birth. One portion of the trivia is a list of the Grammy winners and chart toppers on his birth year, with a CD of the songs. :-) There was also the card that was on his bed telling him to look underneath for another gift the dawn after his birthday. And then finally, I kidnapped him for a Corregidor trip last weekend.
The whole time I was preparing for these birthday surprises, I didn't get stressed nor tired. I was so excited and happy to get all these ready for him. That's when I realized that I really have fallen for this guy. Whether I like it or not! :-)
I may keep on denying it to myself but when I was watching him standing in front of the trees and enjoying every moment, I realized that I love making this man happy. His simple smile makes my heart melt. That's enough for me to say, I love him.
